I know it is hard for you now Squirt. Your body is tired after living such a long and active life. Remember how strong you were and how high you would jump at the back door? Everyone always remembered you jumping like this.
Today as you laid in the sun next to me, you were very quiet and you slept most of the day. Penny and I were very worried that this would be our last day with you by the woodstove. I think that new medicine is too much and it is knocking you out. Tomorrow we will go with half a pill instead.
You surprised me again though. You got up, walked around out back, ate a whole bunch of chicken breast and had some dog treats. Guess what? You can now have as many treats as you want. We just have to sneak them behind Berton and Penny, otherwise, they get jealous.
If you are in pain my dear old friend, please let me know. As you know, the vet can come to the house to make the pain go away and we can say goodbye. My heart hurts to think of doing that. I hope instead you can run off to the rainbow bridge in one of your dreams. Last night you were really running hard in a dream. I hope that I am in your dreams, running alongside you and patting you when you stop for a rest.
I do know that you are in my dreams a lot. I also feel you by my leg a lot, you know when you stand quietly next to me in your velcro mode. I like that. I like reaching down and patting you and pushing your snout against my leg. Rubbing those big floppy ears of yours is also fun. You like it when I rub your neck right behind your ears and you let me know by “talking”. We will do some more of that later this evening.
We both know that we do not have much time together. I see you hanging on, and I know you are trying to make me happy as you always do. When I move to another room, you get up and follow me there, even though you can barely walk now. I see that Squirt. You are completely devoted to me. I want you to know that your unconditional love for me and companionship has been the best gift I have ever received. I will never forget that, Squirt. You are a very good boy, Squirt!
I wish that I could have spent more time alone with you, or together with you, Berton and Penny. We liked it when you came on walks with us and we did not mind waiting for you. We are going to miss having you along with us. Please know that we will be thinking of you a lot, and for a long time. Our memories of you will last forever. Your sweet smile, you sitting with your crossed paws smiling as you watch the world go by, your strong muscles and the way you would jump, sleeping on the floor with you when you were having trouble getting up on the bed, watching you sleep in your little bed next to the heater in the garage, and most of all, realizing that you were always next to me and watching my every move. I hope you are still able to keep a close eye on me, Squirt. Thank you!
Now, sleep peacefully Squirt. I am right here next to you and will stay here with you, no matter what. We are all around you and grateful for all you have done and what you taught us in life. Our Velcro Vizsla bond is permanent.